Unattainable

Last night, Mom was watching channel 8, seven o'clock show. One of the girl had cancer. mom cried and said the story reminded her of uncle. I told her not to think too much. After saying that, i thought, sometimes, some things can't be avoided.. We've gotta be brave and face it. This morning when i was changing the bedding for hammy, i heard sis phone ringing. A msg with a weird number. Too much of a curiosity, i took a look. "This is your Malaysia cousin, my dad has just passed away" fucking shocked when i saw that. I called mom, but sis walked out of the room holding mom's phone. I passed sis her phone and told her to take a look at the msg. My sister so kia su. faster go pack her stuffs, bath, filled in the white card and took passport, when off to looked for mom after receiving mom's call. Si bei act lame. -.- while we were having breakfast, sis said yesterday when she visited uncle, half of his body was already affected by the disease and his stomach was very flat could see the organs.

Liyi told me not to be sad for losing him but be happy i once had him. Yes i know, but what made me sad was because i regretted for not paying him a visit. I didn't get to see him during Chinese New Year because he could hardly walked and travelling from Malacca to Grandma's house took about 2 hrs. Last month when we went in for wedding, he also didn't showed up. And yesterday when I had a chance to see him, i choose to go facial.. Mama persuaded me to visit him but i told her Chinese New Year was only a few months away, he could make it. Kill me for being so fuck.. I regret for being like this, being selfish. :'( RIP my uncle.

There's math paper 2 tomorrow. Luckily mom ain't going in tonight else i can jump down already.

Even though neither of us know what the future holds, I know one thing for sure; you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.