My happiness don't last

My dad is back home with us!! weee~ This is what i call haengbok (happiness) Everyone together, under the same shelter. I couldn't be any happier when my dad called and tell me his back home =D Even though they both still didn't talk, but it's so much better to quarrel. At least I think this is enough and I believe they'll patch back. My parents just need a little time :) Since the day he left till now, I've only seen him once & he has only came back once. To fix the pipes...

But on the other hand, I don't know why, my happiness just don't last. I'm afraid that history may repeat itself again... My biggest fear is that someday they might just quarrel again, break the glass or whatever they can, and one of them may just leave this house.. I'm scared of so many things and I don't wish to be silently crying myself to bed again, just like how it used to be. I know many things is not within my control, but I just hope things will turn out fine from no onwards :)

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Every now and then, when I recall back the past, I felt silly. My parents were very nice to me but I took it for granted. I never put myself in their shoes but even added onto their burden. I hate my stubborn character I once had.. So i promise to be a good daughter. I wna do well in my studies and let my parents feel happy.

After PSLE, i could have gone to an NA schl which can accept my aggregate but Liyi & I chose to give up the chance and got into Beatty. I never regret making this decision but my parents got nasty comments instead.

Sec1's life is like heaven. Nobody care if you'll pass or not b'cus we're in NT and sec1 doesn't have mid-year exams. Life was so carefree~ But i regretted for my foolish actions i did in that year. I could have avoided signing detention slips but I just have to walk out of detention room, x1 or x2 per week. Ha ha ha so sound stupid to get myself into this shit but that was me. Maybe that was what my mom say, childish. Maybe I was immature during that time. but my parents never got angry with me. Even when my teacher called my dad, he never told me he received complaints saying that I fought in school. I only found it out when I asked him.

Now when I think back, I was L.A.M.E & full of B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T ha ha ha ha!! But no matter how much I study, I'm just don't score as high as others leh.. Haiiyo~~ aish!